Hey! So today I am gonna break away from the scripture from today because today I have to testify.
**The scripture today though is really good so take a look at it Matthew 23:1-39**
I have to share....The verse that came up when I opened my Bible was Isaiah 25:1. When I tell you God will speak to you when you ask HE WILL DO IT!!! Yesterday at church the Pastor talked about how we have to Transmit. Transform. and Testify. I feel like I have done the first 2, but I have issues when it comes to me testifying because I get so afraid and worried about the judgments I will receive from people. But after talking to my friend and an intense experience today, I realized that in order for people to see what God can do for them I have to tell what God has done for me....
So many people think that I have had life easy or my life is perfect because I have been able to go to private schooling all my life and been able to complete college. Not having too many MAJOR stresses in my life. People think that since my parents and I have been going to church EVERY Sunday since I was born that I hardly do anything wrong and that I am just this perfect daughter. But let me end that thinking right now.Without a doubt I have been blessed. And because I accepted Jesus into my heart at a young age (7 I think) I have been given God's mercy. His mercy has PROTECTED me from so many bad things that should have entered my life and I am so thankful for that. However, just because I go to church every Sunday, sing in the choir, and dance for the Lord does not mean that I am this perfect person.
God and the devil are probably the only people who know every single one of my mistakes. They both know my weaknesses, what causes me to sin, what causes me to doubt God. Notice how I said the DEVIL knows these things about my life too. When I was in college I went through this period where I didn't go to church and stopped praying and building a relationship with God. I felt that I was grown and could basically handle things on my own. I didn't know it then, but that was probably one of the lowest points in my life. I was doing so many things that my parents and God would not be proud of. Looking back, I get so ashamed and embarrassed. There are SO many bad things that should have come my way because of my actions. I could literally make a 3 or more page list of all the bad things that should/could have happened to me because of all my negative actions. But just because I left God, doesn't mean He left me.
Fast forward to now. I am slowly but surely working on rebuilding my relationship with God and each day I thank Him for what He is doing in my life. Now see the devil....he doesn't like that. He doesn't want to see me building a relationship with God. So today the devil decides to enter all up in my happiness. How does he do it? He reminds me of my past. He yells in my ear about wrong things I did in college and how I don't deserve to be forgiven. The devil tells me that because of what I did in the past I am never going to be worthy enough for God. So I should just give up. When I heard that I didn't immediately know it was the devil, so I started feeling all types of stressed, sad, embarrassed, and ashamed. But then I realized something....God sent HIS ONLY SON to die on the cross for me so I could be forgiven!
When I recognized that all I could do was cry and lift my hands in praise. In that instant I stopped being so ashamed to talk to God. I stopped feeling down on myself. I stopped holding my head down. What I did was praise God. When I say I literally YELLED at the devil to get off my back I mean it. I told the devil he will NOT define my future because of my past actions! God has given me a new slate, which He does every. single. day. I will never wave my flag of defeat. I told the devil "No sir! You will not bring me down, get behind me!"
After about 30 mins of me yelling at the devil and praising God, I can honestly say that I feel SO much better, and I instantly knew that it was time to put my feelings of fear aside to share a testimony. Don't let your past define your future. Don't think that God can't or won't accept you because of all the bad things you have done in your life, because John 3:16 and Romans 5:7-9 tells us otherwise. I already know that as I get stronger with God the devil is going to try so many ways to bring me down. But this time the devil was put on instant hush mode. He was not ready for me to start praising God, he expected me to stress out and bring myself down. Not this time!!!
Ok I think I have made my point, but obviously the Holy Spirit is still moving in me as I type. \o/ yaasss!
I just hope my testimony will shed some light on someones life who feels they aren't good enough to accept Jesus because of their past. Don't ever let the devil fool you into thinking that...
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gi4GQG8xESM
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