What I learned...

Well I did it...I was able to fast from SNS and I honestly believe it was a success. And I cant believe how much I learned about myself and the relationship I was able to gain with God. Even though I didn't read the scripture everyday I did read the verse of the day on my Bible app every day, and applied it to my life. Also what started off as me praying when I wake up and before I go to bed, turned into me praying throughout the day. 

When I first started this fast I wanted to mute the outside world so that I could hear God clearly. I had so many prayer requests and while not all of them have been answered I have gotten some serious blessings. When I first started I was only working a couple days a week but now I have gotten a full time job and also work weekend with another job! PRAISE HIM! My sister got her scholarship that she has been working SO many months for, even though we don't know the exact amount we all know that it's going to be enough. PRAISE HIM! I was able to submit all my law school applications on time. PRAISE HIM! Even though I have 2 rejections and a waitlist I still have more schools to hear from and my faith in GOD has increased so much during this fast that I know He will lead me and place me at the school I belong. I just have to wait and be patient. I have learned that so many times I have felt that I need constant male attention and would do so many things just to get it. But now I see that God will bring me the person for my life when I am ready. I dont need to put myself all out there or go back to past relationships. There is a reason that God tears people apart and even though I might not understand it I have to trust God. Yep, I do get lonely (habits you've had all your life are hard to break in 40 days) and wish I had a guy to talk to...but then I realize that I have God to speak with. PRAISE HIM! 

I have been taking notes when I go to church and there have been so many messages that I feel were preached exactly for me. There were times when I thought God had forgotten about me and wasn't listening to my prayer requests, and honestly sometimes I still feel that way, but I have gotten so much better with being patient. There are times when I lose my faith and get angry but I just dust the devil off my back and ask God to forgive me for doubting Him. It's just an amazing feeling of how this fast opened my eyes to so many things that God is able to do. From the big to the small. I can't wait to see how God is going to continue to speak to me and lead me in positive directions!

So am I still going to be using SNS? Well, yesterday afternoon I downloaded all my apps back. Kinda went crazy...but I am definitely going to tone down my use. Surprisingly, it's not as interesting to me as before. It's crazy how obsessed i was with it before this fast. But I am still going to use it, but now that I have other things to occupy my time I don't feel that I have to be on it 24/7. And of course I am going to continue this blog and continue to increase my relationship with God and marvel and the wonderful things He has/is done/doing. I am so excited, because I realize how blessed I truly am. Even times when I feel down and things aren't working out the way I want them to I realize I AM BLESSED!